Life and Family?!

I had to go no contact with my bio mother long ago because of her dedication to repeating abusive cycles and more recently with bio sister for very much the same reasons. I never had much family, so these decisions weren't made lightly.

About a week ago, it occurred to me to reach out to a cousin of mine and hope bio mother hadn't completely poisoned that metaphorical well. Turns out, they live within driving distance now and I get to see them for the first time in absolute ages soon! I'm incredibly excited to potentially have some family back in my life.

I'm very aware that there is no guarantee that this will be the beginning of healing even just these family bonds, but I'm as excited as it's possible to be without being out of touch with reality. I love my in-laws more than I once would've thought was possible, but having my own family around again is tremendous. 

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